Trying not to think about you, only makes me thinking about you more....
12 Sept 2012
Dear, you.... Are you fine today? I miss you so much.. (well, duh, what's new?)
I guess even though people say it is good for me, to have some distance from you is healthy, they never really tell me how to deal with the after-effects. They don't know how to completely erase you from my mind, and my heart. They don't know how hard it is to pretend that I don't care about you. They don't know how heart-breaking it is, to love someone this much and is forced to forget everything. When every little thing reminds me of you. When every road I take reminds me of us. When every spark I feel inside is caused by you.
No... No one can understand that.
Aku tadi lihat anjing lucu lhoooo....
Actually, let me start from the beginning. Gak ada hubungannya sih, cuma lebih enak kalau bercerita dari awal aja. Tadi pagi sewaktu aku berangkat ke kerja, hampir kecelakaan lho. Tepanya mobil perusahaan hampir menabrak orang. Ceritanya sih sewaktu di jalanan ring-road, yang pernah kita lewati itu, yang menjadi rute pergi-pulang aku kerja, disana kan memang kendaraannya cepet-cepet semacam jalan tol. Padahal banyak kampung disitu yang tentunya banyak orang-orang desa juga yang memakai jalan itu. Jadi banyak sepeda motor, mobil pribadi, tentunya bis dan truk-truk besar lewat disitu. Bahaya kan kalau sekali ada jatuh. Tadi kejadiannya juga begitu, sepeda motor mau menyalip mobil ke kanan, tapi ragu-ragu, lalu mau ke sebelah kanan, tidak sadar kalau mobil perusahaan (yang aku tumpangi) ada di belakangnya. Mungkin kaget lalu seperti terpeleset jatuh. Untung saja mobil ga jalan terlalu cepat pada waktu itu, kalau cepat bisa kena menabrak deh. Lucky guy....
And then, sewaktu masuk ke desa tempat aku kerja itu, inget tidak di sekitar jalanan rumah temen kerjaku yang kita pernah datangin resepsi pernikahannya? Disitu sewaktu mobilku mau lewat, ada satu anjing mau menyeberang, tidak lihat-lihat iiiih.... Hampir aja menabrak lagi. Jangan sampai deh ya. :( sedih deh aku nanti kalau anjingnya tertabrak. Lucky dog...
Suddenly I miss you. Biasanya kalau ada cerita seperti ini, you usually tease me. :) You always say something bad about the dog, seperti tertabrak lah, atau terbunuh lah. Something that you know it will annoy me, but I know you were just teasing me. I miss that. :)
Tadi di facebook, ga sengaja lihat ada foto satu anjing Husky for Sale. Entah sih harganya berapa, really like it because it looks fat, and of course, reminds me more about you.
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| is it cute? |
How's Ruffy, by the way? Is she well?
Still fat? Still lovable? :) I miss her....
When I got home, at first there was nothing exciting going on. But later on, I found out that Erni was experimenting to cook Sup Matahari. I was watching, to learn how to do it. Well because I love looking at people cooking. It's like magic. Well yes I know, I'm still learning to cook as well. Tonight I was being reminded, about the times when I cooked for you. It was so exciting to read the recipes, go shopping for the ingredients, and double excitement is when I was cooking, I was hoping that you'd like it.
Aku masih ada hutang akan masakin kamu lho. Bolu kukus? Wonder when I can finally make it for you. :)
Malam-malam ke Paragon, sama Erni & Matthew. Ke Starbucks. :p Karena aku mau nyobain menu barunya Starbucks. The Sea Salt Caramel Mocha.
This is GOOOOOOOD !! So yummy. Mau coba?
Pernah kebayang minuman pakai garam? Tapi ternyata kombinasi garam dan caramelnya, cocok. Jadi tidak terlalu asin, meskipun at some point kadang asinnya terasa, tapi justru membuat gurih, tidak eneg. Meskipun dengan whipped cream. I will tell more about it on other chances. Kebetulan tadi sewaktu beli, pakai KKBCA ada promo dapat 1 free frappucino, so I got it for Erni. Nongkrong sebentar di Starbucks, bersama Novita & her husband. Pulang sekitar 10.30PM.
We talked about some possibilities that I can do in my future, just like what I secretly want to share with you, but I don't know. Saddens me though, having this heavy thing on me and can't share it with you :(. I don't know where you are, how you do, what you think.
Sometimes things don't go as well as we all expected, eh?
Wherever you are, whatever you're up to, I'm hoping you are very well. Believing that you can make it, with God's guidance on you.
.bie.
(<3)
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