Sunday, September 16, 2007

foto makanan

selama 2 minggu yang lalu, karena bokek.. cuma masak sekedarnya..

dinner irit
Cah Kangkung .. Telor Mata Sapi .. Minumnya Fanta Orange :D
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sarapan irit
Roti Bakar pake Nutella / Meises Coklat, dikasih susu kental manis di atasnya...
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Waktu ada tambahan duit sedikit, beli ayam deh sekilo. Masak Curry Ayam, cepet dan gampang. Eh tapi ternyata berasnya abis, jd makan pake Mashed Potato deh.
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Oya, dessert. Pudding Coklat + Saus Vla Putih, yang agak keenceran karena kebanyakan air. Tapi tetep enak kok ;p.
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Friday, September 14, 2007

benjolan aneh - part 2

Masih inget kisah ini ?

Updates... 2 hari setelah posting itu, benjolannya aku pecah. Aku tusuk pake peniti, aku keluarkan cairannya, cairannya bening. Lalu kulit yang ke-stretch itu aku kelupas, lalu aku tempel Handyplast.

Seminggu kemudian, inilah yang terjadi. Jadi kaya berlubang. Gak sakit sih sebenernya.

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Lalu aku pakein Handyplast lagi. Yah karena aku pikir kalau terekspos udara kan bisa kena debu / kuman , dan melihat aku punya rumah ada anjing dan berantakan ;p.
Aku pikir cuma butuh waktu aja untuk regenerasi kulit baru.



Seminggu kemudian ( hari ini ), inilah yang terjadi. Terlihat, jadi memerah dan benjol kecil, dan di tengah2nya itu kering, tapi gak bisa dikelupas. Kalau sekarang sakit, dipegang senut-senut.

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Yah ada yang bilang harus tanya ke dokter sih, musti diapain. Tapi males juga buang duit cuma untuk nanyain benjolan aneh. Sampai sekarang ini aku masih gak tahu ini apaan, mau ke dokter jg ntar aku bingung ngejelasinnya gimana :| .

Diapain yah enaknya..... (~_~).

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Subway Commercial Greasy Fast Food

Lately, this commercial appears on TV for like , every hour. When I first saw it, I didn't care, because I don't really like Subway. But you know, when you hear something over and over again, every hour, somehow it's stuck in your head.

Now I love it.

Ba-donka-donk ? Budenkedunk ? xD

PS : But I don't believe that Subway's healthier than other fast food company.

Even though it's true, I don't care.

I still love McDonald's.

MmmMmMmMmmMmmm... McDonald's .. i'm loving it ...





Rat-a-too-ee


I went to Hoyts cinema two days ago ( Tuesday night ) after work, with Melz and Utie, to watch this movie.
At first I didn't want to watch it in cinema, thought I would download it, but after hearing some people saying that it's a good movie, I decided, alright I'll go to cinema.

Turns out, it's pretty good. A drama, with little comedy.

Before the movie begins, we are presented with a short animation movie by Pixar, called Lifted. It's about an alien having an exam abducting a man who's a really heavy sleeper. Because eventhough the alien failed everytime and the man got thrown to the wall, he keeps sleeping. Pretty funny.

*spoiler alert*

Okay about Rat-a-too-ee.
First we are introduced to Chef Gusteau, a chef lives in Paris and have a famous restaurant. He's also a writer for a cooking book, " Anyone can cook ".

But this movie is about a rat, named Remy, who has special gift. He can smell anything and appreciate every taste. He lives in a house belongs to an old lady in the suburb with his big brother and his dad, who turns out to be the head of the rat clan. There are hundreds of rats there, and they've been stealing food from the old lady.

One day, Remy saved his dad's life. He almost ate a rat-poisoned food. Remy smelled it and his dad realized his talent. So he's been appointed to be poison detector. Feeling like living a boring life, he feels he wants to do more.

When he sneaked in to the old lady's kitchen, the TV was announcing news about Chef Gusteau's book, and Remy believed in what Gusteau said. It's inspired him to be a cook, so when he found an old mushroom, he wanted to make something out of it.
The cute thing is, eventhough he's a rat, he understands that foods should be handled hygienically. He always washes his hands before handling foods.

He asked his brother to help him, and found some spices and cooked it on the roof with lighting as a fire =P. Then he realized he need saffron to make it better, so he and his brother sneaked back to the old lady's kitchen. She's always sleeping whenever the cooking show's on, so Remy thought it was okay. Well it didn't. The TV announced some news about Gusteau, he received bad critic from a food critic named Anton Ego, and Gusteau took the news terribly and resulted in his death. Remy was shocked and when he got closer to the TV, the old lady woke up and spotted him. She went mad and kept shooting at them. In the end, the ceiling fell and the rats clan who have been living in the attic were exposed.

They were all trying to run away from the house, since the old lady wanted to kill them all. In the middle of the panic attempt to escape, Remy remembered that he wanted to take the cooking book and got back to the house. Because of that, he got left behind when all of his family and friends are already in a "boat" in the river / sewer. He tried to catch up, but the old lady got in the way, she shot at the boats, missed it of course, but Remy was separated with the clan when the sewer tunnel's parted into 2 ways.

Somehow Remy was drifted further in the sewer, and while he was waiting desperately for a sign and hungry, an imaginary fairy, who resembles Gusteau, appeared. He somehow became like a guardian angel for Remy. Fairy Gusteau suggested Remy to explore the city to get food, and after a minute or two, he ended up on a roof, overlooking Paris, with Gusteau's restaurant behind him.

Meanwhile, in the Gusteau's restaurant, there was a crisis happening because of Gusteau's death. It was short-staffed, and needed a garbage boy, there was a boy applying to get a job there, named Alfredo Linguini. ( Does this name sound like a pasta menu ? It does to me. )
He's clumsy and has no talent at all in cooking, yet he needed a job, so he obeyed his deceased mother's request who told him to apply for a job in Gusteau's, and apparently she knew Gusteau and wrote a letter.

One day, when Remy was observing the kitchen from a window in the ceiling, he saw that Linguini spilled the cooked soup and was making a mess with the soup. Remy was upset and fell from the window, and after running-and-hiding scenes for awhile, which can leave the audience with suspense =P, Remy added some ingredients to the soup while escaping. He got carried away though, and spent some time in the stove, and didn't realized Linguini was back and looking at him. When he was caught by Linguini, the sous-chef, Skinner, came and thought Linguini was cooking while he was supposed to be cleaning and got really mad. A waiter came and took some of the soup, and after they got panic because they thought it was terrible, it turned out the soup was great. And Skinner tried to punish Linguini and fire him, but the woman chef, Colette, convinced him that Linguini can help the restaurant by asking him to make the soup again the next day.


While they were having the conversation, Remy was trying to escape through the window and Skinner saw him. All the chefs gone ballistic and wanted to kill it, but Skinner said it's better to throw it away because he wanted to keep the credibility of the restaurant. He asked Linguini to do it, and Linguini took Remy to a river and tried to throw him to the river. But he couldn't do it, he felt bad himself and depressed and complained about his life. Apparently Remy can understand him, so Linguini got an idea, he can't cook, but Remy can, so that they should be cooking partner.

Linguini took Remy to his small flat, and the next day he found out that Remy can control him by tugging his hair. ( I think it's weird, there was no explanation why it can happen. )
So Remy hid inside the chef hat.

Apparently, Skinner was trying to take over the restaurant, and when he read Linguini's mother's letter, it's clear that actually Linguini is Gusteau's son. And he tried to hide this fact and consult his attorney. His attorney advised him to try to get a hair or something from Linguini to do DNA test with Gusteau's hair. Skinner tried to get some informations about Linguini's talent by making him drunk. Meanwhile, Remy was reunited with his brother, who was actually looking for food in the restaurant's trash bin, Remy helped to steal some food from the fridge, and he was dragged back to the clan. But Remy decided he wanted to continue to be a cook.

Linguini was attracted to Colette, and when they got closer, Remy felt abandoned. He was feeling sad, and one day, he was forced to steal food again from the fridge because his brother came with his friends, and when he found out the fridge was locked, he sneaked into Skinner's office, he found Gusteau's will and found out about the heir. He was caught by Skinner and stole the documents and after some chasing scenes, he escaped.

In a nut shell, the restaurant was now owned by Linguini, and Skinner was fired. Feeling disappointed, Skinner tried to get a revenge by contacting health inspector to report about rat's condition, but his appointment was full, and couldn't inspect Gusteau's soon.

Well time goes by. One day, because Linguini was overwhelmed with fame and success, he and Remy had a falling out and part ways. Remy was furious and lead a rats raid to the kitchen. Somehow Linguini felt bad and wanted to say sorry to Remy, and he went back to the kitchen. When he found out that Remy was conducting a rats invasion, he got mad and kick them all out.

Trouble arises when the Anton Ego wanted to come again to the restaurant to review the new rising chef, Linguini. In panic, and realizing that he was wrong to kick Remy out, he confessed to the fellow chefs that it was Remy who was talented, not him. He didn't get good reaction though, the chefs left him because they were disappointed. And feeling down, Linguini gave up and stayed in the office.


Remy didn't want to give up, he wanted to cook, and with the help of all the rats, he controlled the kitchen, Linguini became the waiter for the night. The funny part here is, the health inspector suddenly came and saw all the rats were working in the kitchen, and terrified. Then he was tied and hidden in the fridge =D.

Colette
came back too, and with disbelief at first, she agreed to help Remy.

Remy
cooked Ratatouille for Anton Ego & Skinner who came in disguise to watch the food critic. It turned out the food was really good, it even brought Ego back to childhood memory. When he asked to see the chef, Linguini ask him to wait until all the customers left. Ego agreed, because he really wanted to know who makes the food. In the end, Linguini confessed and showed Remy to Ego. Ego didn't seem to believe it at first, but after seeing Remy remade the food, he left speechless.

The day after, the review was out. And it was great.

But still, Remy was a rat, rat has an image that it's a nasty vermin, and because the health inspector already knew that the kitchen was full of rats, the restaurant was closed down. Ego also loses his job as food critic, because he gave good review to a rat-infested restaurant.

But it all comes to the best. Ego opened a small restaurant named La Ratatouille with Remy as head chef. And of course Linguini & Colette were there.
Even though the restaurant was small, but it was warm and it has both dining facilities for human and rats. =D

~*~

This movie is more like a drama, rather than comedy. But although I was not laughing out loud, like when I was watching Shark Tale or Shrek 2, it's a good movie. 8/10. I don't regret watching it in the cinema.

Do watch it in the cinema.

PS :
But don't watch Surf's Up in the cinema. My friends said it's not worth it. Maybe just watch it in the dvd or something =P.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

HANA-BI

http://imdb.com/title/tt0119250/

Iseng-iseng rent DVD minggu lalu dari Video-EZY, tertarik untuk pinjem film ini. Asal comot pertamanya, karena dulu pernah denger kalau film ini bagus.
Lalu baca reviewnya di belakang case :

" EXTRAORDINARY ! WILDLY BEAUTIFUL.
HANA-BI is one of the decade's great films. It left me in tears.
- Vogue "

Sounds promising.

Sinopsis film :
Detective Nishi is bitter when he learns that his wife, Miyuki, is terminally ill and his partner Horibe was shot and now tied to a wheelchair. Horibe wants to become a painter, but doesn't have money for that. To help him and a young police widow whose husband was shot dead during an arrest, he borrows money from Yakuza. After that he buys an old car, paints it as a police car, and, dressed in uniform, singlehandedly robs a bank. With the money he goes on a final farewell journey together with his wife.

~*~

Film ini berat, artistik, serius. Entah ya, aku merasa film ini quiet banget.
Jarang ada backsound music, baru mulai ada setelah mendekati ending.
Itupun jg karena tokoh-tokohnya tidak berdialog, jadi diisi dengan music.
Para pemain gak mengeluarkan banyak dialog. Tapi lebih bercerita lewat gerakan.

30 menit pertama rada plain sih, kurang lebih ngegambarin kehidupan satu team polisi.
Kalau gak salah ada 5 orang.
Ada tokoh utama, yang dari awal sudah kelihatan kalau pendiam, cool, gak banyak bicara. Punya istri yang sakit leukemia dan ga ada kemungkinan sembuh, dan putri mereka satu-satunya meninggal.
Gak heran sejalan cerita, kesannya dia terbebani.

Ada rekannya, yang dari luar seperti punya keluarga harmonis, tapi ternyata ketika dia masuk RS dan harus hidup di kursi roda, istri dan anak-anaknya ninggalin dia.

Lalu satu orang, yang mati dan meninggalkan seorang istri.

Film ini sbnrnya baru jelas ceritanya setelah 40 menit ke atas.
Karena ceritanya lompat-lompat gitu.
Jadi ada satu moment, mereka bertugas di satu mall ? Untuk mengepung satu penjahat. Lalu sepertinya tokoh utama maju sendirian, dan jadi berantem.
Lalu entah deh, tiba-tiba jadi ada tembakan-tembakan. Ga tahu sapa yang nembak. Pokoknya dari 5 orang itu, satu mati, satu cacat deh.

Mungkin karena awalnya dari berantem itu, maka tokoh utama merasa bersalah kepada teman-temannya.
Jadi dia keluar dari kepolisian, selain untuk spend more time sama istrinya juga.
Dia jg menjenguk temannya yang di kursi roda itu, yang bercerita gimana dia ditinggal oleh keluarganya, dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk mempunyai hobby melukis, dan nengok janda dari temannya yang meninggal, yang bercerita kepada dia kalau mencari income susah banget, dan dia hanya kerja di deli.

Ternyata dia juga berurusan dengan Yakuza. Dia punya utang ke mereka.

Lalu dia pergi ke tempat mobil-mobil bekas. Disitu dia menemukan lampu polisi. Dan akhirnya membeli mobil taksi bekas.
Mobil itu dicat ulang, menyerupai mobil polisi.
Maka dia pakai mobil itu untuk merampok bank.

Adegan merampoknya juga silent banget. Rada gak masuk akal sih menurutku.
Karena dia cuma jalan ke counter teller, naruh bungkusan item, ngacungin pistol di atas meja, dan teller jalan ke belakang ambil duit, dan kasih ke dia.
Tanpa ada reaksi apa-apa dari sekelilingnya, padahal rame. Apakah karena dia pake baju polisi lalu gak ada yang mengira dia perampok ?
Tapi masa gak ada yang sadar dia ngacungin pistol.

Anyway, yah dia pake duit rampokan itu, untuk bayar utang ke Yakuza, untuk beliin temennya peralatan lukis, dan kasih tunjangan ke si janda. Sisanya dia pake untuk jalan-jalan ama istrinya.

Si tokoh utama sebenernya punya sifat yang unpredictable. Bisa tenang, diam, gak banyak bicara. Tapi sekali-kali bisa meledak-ledak dan gak peduli. Bisa asal mukul dan bunuh orang.
Akhir cerita sih, dia ada bunuh anggota Yakuza itu, dan diburu dua orang temannya yang masih bekerja di kepolisian.

Scene terakhir dia ditemukan bersama istrinya di pantai, dan dia minta waktu sebelom dibawa ke kepolisian. Di pantai, dia bersama istrinya melihat seorang anak cewe main-main layangan. Dia ikutan main sih, tp akhirnya ngrusakin layangannya.
In the end, gak jelas akhirnya gimana. Ada suara tembakan 2x, dan kamera shoot wajah anak cewe yang bengong. Aku ngiranya sih, mati. Tapi entah, gak jelas.

Filmnya selain gak banyak dialog, banyak silencenya, lalu terkadang diselip2in gambar-gambar art. Jadi bisa ada kemungkinan bosan di tengah-tengah.
Lumayan bagus sih, dalem.
Tapi untuk nonton lagi, males deh. =D
Tadi aja aku nonton sambil ngaskus saking bosennya.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Belakangan ini, rasanya capeeeeeeek banget.
Berhari-hari ngejar belajar, assignments.
Stress banget.

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In the end, aku gak yakin sih assignmentku sukses atau gak.
Entah deh, pasrah aja.
Aku cuma bisa berusaha semampuku.


Anyway, berhubung aku gak tahu mau posting apaan,
hmm.. posting ini aja ah.
Hari ini masak dinner, iseng-iseng moto. Hehehehehe......
Nasi goreng dan telor, dan tomat sbg sides.
Makanan hemat dan irit.
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Saturday, September 01, 2007

kisah 2 ekor anjing

nemu dari forum , cerita ini mengharukan banget ..
miris banget rasanya ....


* klik untuk liat gede ...
i'm sorry i have to make thumbnails of these pictures, cause my blog's layout will crop the picture,

so click to see the original size ...

it's worth to look the dog's expression .. :'(


~~~~~~~


1. One dog was in the middle of the road protecting another dog which was knocked down by a vehicle. The dog kept using his paws to call his fallen companion but to no avail.





2. Then it kept pulling the dead dog to the side of the road but he was too weak. When people came to help them, the dog kept barking them to chase human away from his dead friend.





3.Even the traffic was busy, he refused to leave his fallen companion behind and stayed all the way with him.





4.Many people saw the scene and was very touched that even a dog can show loyality to his friend.

Friday, August 31, 2007

belajar parkir

dari bloghopping, nemu satu web bagus ...

http://www.driverseddirect.com/game/

ada 5 level .. kita harus markir-in mobil pake keyboard .. yah belajar parkir gitu lah ..
aku maen sampe 2 jam lebih ..
karena aku nyoba-nyoba terus gaya parkir yang berbeda .. dari depan, dari belakang, maju, mundur ..

i love driving .. tapi aku gak jago parkir lurus nih !!! (di level pertama)

baik di game, maupun di kehidupan nyata ..
parkir yang lain-lainnya sih masih oke lah bisa ..


tapi kalau disuruh parkir lurus diantara 2 mobil, ama parkir mundur ...
nah pusink deh saya.....


aku dulu les nyetir, gak dapet pelajaran parkir yang mantap ..
dan setelah itu, gak punya kesempatan banyak untuk latihan jg ..
karena gak ada mobil pribadi sih .. dan juga keluarga punya sopir yang bawel dan rese, males deh .. paling aku cuma make tuh mobil kalau jemput mama dari kerja .. standar lah jalan biasa..

kalau malem, mau latihan, males ah .. udah ada koko yang nyetir, ya saya jadi penumpang aja.. :p

PS : ada yang mau ajarin saya parkir gak ??

Thursday, August 30, 2007

benjolan aneh

i woke up yesterday ..
everything went normal ..
after yawning for some minutes, i walked to my computer desk ..
checked my messenger, replied some messages, opened web-email and kaskus.us ..

then i went to the bathroom ..
peed, picked up Candy's poo (~_~), and flushed the toilet ...

then i got to the desk again ..
as usual, browsing kaskus :p
i didn't notice in the first time that there's something wrong with me ..
well, because i was wearing a jacket with long sleeve ..

anyway,
there's something in my hand ..
anybody know what this is ??




seperti luka bakar yah ?
berisi semacam liquid .. kuning bening ..
tanya-tanya ama temen-temen di forum, gak ada yang tahu jg..
gak gatel sih.. jadi gak mungkin cacar air ..
sakit ? gak jg.. kalau gak kesenggol keras gak papa kok.. kalau ditepok2 dan ditoel2 ya perih dikit..
merah-merahnya jg skrg rada ilang sedikit, gak segede waktu di foto ..
dilemma ... pecah gak yah ? pecah gak yah ??

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nanya2 deh di forum ..

ada yang bilang pecah aja..
ada yang bilang suruh nunggu kempes sendiri ..
a friend told me, beli salep obat bakar di apotik dulu, biar nanti gak bekas waktu mecahnya..
yaah kayanya sih bakal aku pecah deh dalam 2 hari ini..


heran.. kok bisa tiba-tiba ada ginian ..
aku jg gak tahu .. (~_~)
apakah digigit sesuatu ?
oh noooooo......

kemaren ini nemu satu insect sih .. tapi lom sempet bunuh dia udah kabur..
apa karena itu yah ? hmmm.....
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

hidup segan , mati pun tak mau ...


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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

YouTube is amazing !!

We can find anything , and i mean ANYTHING there ..
Just now, I watched Empat Mata, and I looked at the box beside the video that has links to other videos.
At the top, of course there were links to Empat Mata's shows.
But then I scrolled down, and I found a phrase that's kinda disturbing.

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Aku terbengong-bengong selama 2 menit, sambil membayangkan dan mikir, ni orang gila yah kaya ginian ditampilin ?
Somehow, aku jadi penasaran heuheuhue... Seperti apa yah :D

Aku paused Empat Mata-nya, lalu aku buka video itu di tab baru.
Silakan ditonton juga kalau berminat. :D
Tenang, disensor kok.

Ternyata gak seperti yang aku bayangkan.
Ternyata itu cuplikan dari show TV, semacam stunt action, kaya MTV Whatever Things gitu deh.
Beberapa orang melakukan aksi berani dan gila.
About that video, ada 3 cewe. Mereka keluar ke halaman, disitu ada satu mobil.
Satu cewe bersedia untuk buka celana.
Then they did this "experiment".
Mereka punya wax, dan wax paper ditempel di sudut belakang mobil (gak tahu namanya apa ~_~).

Satu cewe masuk ke mobil, cewe lain bertugas mengoleskan wax ke pubic hair cewe yang buka celana.
Setelah diolesin, cewe itu nempelin ke wax paper yang udah diselotip ke mobil itu.
Lalu mereka menghitung 1.. 2.. 3..
Hitungan ke 3, cewe yang di dalam mobil akan jalanin mobilnya.
Cewe yang di wax diam di tempat, lalu yaaah... pubic hair nya akan kewax.
Tonton sendiri aja lah biar lebih jelas :D.
Yang jelas sih mereka gila banget deh, berani bikin gituan heuheuhue.
Cukup menghibur.

Anyway, sebenernya tadi awalnya gak berniat bahas itu sih.
Errr.. dari situ, aku YouTube-hopping. Dari judulnya, ternyata kelink dengan tag seperti memek & vagina.
Dari tag-tag itu, somehow banyak muncul video-video kelahiran.
Hebat.
Semua video memperlihatkan proses kelahiran dari awal sampai akhir.
Dilating, head crowning, bleeding, placenta, etc. Everything !
Somehow aku jadi terobsesi sesaat, aku tontonin banyak video tentang natural birth.
Prosesnya cepet yah kalau sudah full dilated 10 cm.
Yah kontraksinya sih lama, tp kalau sudah, kepala-kepala bayi langung mbrojol cepet gitu.
Berbeda-beda yah, ada yang berdarah-darah, ada yang sepertinya gak terlalu banyak mengeluarkan darah, bahkan ada yang sepertinya slimy-slimy gitu.

Lalu ada satu video, panjang.
Sekitar 50 menit lebih.
Ternyata yang panjang itu, video operasi caesar.
Juga ditunjukkin jelas dari awal, dari proses incision, sampai bayi keluar, dll. Dijelasin dari awal.
Semacam dokumentari gitu deh.
Tapi kalau dilihat, sepertinya caesar lebih berdarah-darah.

Setelah melihat 2 proses itu, aku jadi ngebandingin.
Kalau natural birth kayanya lebih ke slimy, operasi caesar itu lebih bleeding.
Natural birth prosesnya sakit, tapi setelah keluar, lega.
Kalau operasi, prosesnya gak sakit, tapi setelah itu baru sakit.
Kira-kira enak yang mana yah ?

Selama ini aku selalu membayangkan akan punya anak dengan natural birth sih.
Tapi ada kepikiran jg, setelah melihat semua itu, apa aku sanggup ? Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket
One line that stucks in my head when I was watching, " Oh my God ! MOM, how could you do this ?! Three times !! ".

Sorry, aku cuma amazed aja ama perjuangan wanita-wanita untuk melahirkan.









Emaaaaaakkkkkkkkkk................................................

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

anxiety

Last week, it was my mom's 62nd birthday.
I called her at night and we ended up talking for hours.
It was nice.
It's been a while and i do miss her, and the fact that we didn't argue as usual , just makes it even nicer.
We talked about lots of things.
Mostly about families.
She talked about some of my relatives, and their plans, their lives.
And also some of my friends...


In the end,when i hung up, i don't know why, i was sad.
At that second, it's just struck me,
I just realized, I'm the only one in the family, or even maybe in my society, who doesn't even have a plan.
All those goals and achievements that a nearly 22 years old woman should have,
I'm not there.

I'm not even close.

How pathetic am i ?

When people are starting to graduate and look for job, I'm still stuck here.

When people are planning for future, maybe having lovers, finding soulmates or planning for weddings and stuffs, I don't have that.
I don't even have close friends, let alone a lover.

Then I looked back.
Observing my life.
I know that it's me who got myself to this situation.
I know that it's my own mistakes to get stuck in depressions.

Knowing that, makes me more depressed.
I'm so stupid.


*sigh* i just don't know.. i'm tired .. i hope my counsellor on monday can help me (~_~) ..

Saturday, August 04, 2007

The Simpsons' craze .....

Last Tuesday, 31/07/07, I watched The Simpsons Movie @ Hoyts, Melbourne Central.
The movie itself was released on 26/7, at first I was so ecstatic about it and wanted to watch it straight away, but it turned out I couldn't watch it on that day, so I actually planned to watch it on Sunday.
But then I talked to my girlfriends, and because they're not students anymore, they couldn't get student price for the tickets, so I guess it's better for us to watch it on Tuesday.
NoMat ( nonton hemat ) ... =D
So we ( me, Mel, Utie ) went to Hoyts after we finished work. We chose to watch the 9.20 PM session, so we had dinner first.

Anyway, to sum it up, I LOVE THIS MOVIE ..!!
Have been a fan for The Simpsons Series, now i'm loving it even more.....
Especially the part when suddenly Bart's penis comes out after it has been censored for more than 20 seconds..... xD

I took some pictures from the cinema. They're celebrating The Simpsons's release, so they did some decoration. =D

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I especially love this one.
The famous family couch with all family members there.
Too bad we can't take photos in it. :(
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Oh yeah, the popcorn combo's is great =D.
Look at this.
Large popcorn, and large drinks. Very Homer Simpsons. =D
I bought this because I love the cup.
( That is Utie's hand in the back. )
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I know that the popcorn is too much, we can only ate a quarter of it during the movie.
But I took it home, and I snacked on it the day after. =D

Talking about snacks,
the Simpsons craze also hits the food industry.
I love this one, jellies by Nestle Allens, shaped like donuts, we all know donuts are Homer's favourite.
See the jellies, the brown one is of course chocolate, the pink one is strawberry flavoured, the green one is apple ( i don't really like this one, but it's still good ), and the blue one is blueberry / blackberry flavoured, i forgot.
I already ate the whole package, and I've bought 2 more. LOL .

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* no wonder I gained weight these weeks, been eating and snacking all the time !! Like Homer.... (~_~)


Oh one more,
this is me and Hodrick, and our Simpsons character. LOL.
Isn't it cute .... =p
He gave it to me one day, and I laughed out loud looking at him.
Btw , you can make your own Simpsons character in http://www.simpsonsmovie.com/ .

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

Harry Fever in Melbourne Central

21 July 2007 : Perjuangan beli Harry Potter and The Deadly Hallows ... (^^;)

Aku udah pre order sejak bulan Maret .. aku pilih beli di Borders Melbourne Central, City.. because I figure that i always come to city. Anyway, kenapa aku bela-belain pake pre-order segala..
1. karena aku pengen punya yang adult cover copy, bukan yang children cover copy which is covernya gambar. Yang adult copy covernya photo gitu , dan pengalaman dari beli HP 5 dan HP 6 di tahun-tahun kemaren, untuk hari release pertama kali, susah dapet adult cover, karena semua adult cover ditaruh di belakang counter. Yang ditaruh di rak selalu children cover.
I know rada hiperbola sih disini, karena aku tahu nanti2nya jg pasti ada.

Cuman yah, i don't care.. excited sih.. (^^;)

2. karena Borders selalu kasih gift untuk orang yang pre-order, which will be covered in the end.

Anyway, malam sebelom hari rilis, aku udah pasang reminder 2x di henpon (niat :p).
Rencana abis pulang kerja, mau langsung tidur supaya bisa bangun pagi-pagi.
Ternyata gak bisa tidur saking excitednya, jadi aku dini hari abisin waktu untuk nonton dvd.
Lalu inget kayanya ntar bisa foto-foto deh, lalu recharge battery camera.

Ealah jam 4 saya ketiduran (-____-;)
Untung udah pasang alarm jaga-jaga. Tapi dasar kebiasaan , dari jam 6 pagi aku snooze terus berhubung di luar masih gelap, sampe akhirnya bener-bener melek karena sadar kok udah terang. Waks, udah jam 7.30 !!!
Kalang-kabut langsung deh aku buru-buru mandi blablabla, akhirnya baru bisa keluar rumah jam 8.30 (T_T). Padahal rencananya jam 8 harus udah nyampe di toko.

Anyway, waktu keluar apartment, ternyata di luar dingin banget.
Sampe berkabut euy jalan. Yang bisa dibilang jarang terjadi ... (atau jgn-jgn efek Harry Potter xixixixix.....)
Dalam hati aku bilang, kalau gak demi Harry Potter sih, biasanya aku gak bakal mau keluar.

Setelah naek tram sekitar 15-20 menit, sampailah aku di Melbourne Central Shopping Centre, City.
Lari-lari kecil ke tempat Borders berada, walah laaahhh.... udah ada antrian.
Salah informasi, aku kirain Borders bukanya ngikutin jadwal, which is 9.30.
Ternyata transaksi udah dimulai dari jam 7.00. (-__-;)
Meskipun buku baru dibagikan jam 9.30 teng. Tapi aku telat antrinya.
Karena kita harus antri buat ke register dulu, untuk ngelunasin, baru join antrian yang udah pada lunas dan ke tempat buku dibagikan.
Yup, antriannya dipisah. Jadi buku gak dibagikan di tempat register.

Waktu nunggu di antrian, kepikiran buat foto-foto.
Ubek-ubek tas, ambil digicam, nyalain.
Lho kok gak nyala ?!
Doenkkkk.....
Lupa ambil batterynya dari tempat recharge (-___-;). Sama juga boong.
Terpaksa poto pake henpon, jadi kualitasnya rada blur nih huhuhuhu.

Anyway, some pictures. Maaf harus diresize jadi kecil, karena koneksi lagi lelet nih :(.


Ini poto tempat aku waktu antri untuk pembayaran. Barisan depanku sampe depan Borders itu antri untuk bayar. Dari depan Borders ke belakang itu, antrian untuk yang udah bayar. Mentok sampe hampir ke pintu keluar lho.
Barisan di belakangku ? Udah lebih panjang, nutupin 3 toko lebih.
Aku antri kira kira ada kali 15 menitan lebih, baru nyampe ke register untuk bayar.
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Nah setelah bayar, ke antrian untuk ambil buku, keluar lagi deh (-___-;)
Ini foto tempat dari tempat aku antri untuk ambil buku.
Notice itu antrian untuk yang belom bayar sampai harus dibelokin ke Kookai karena toko-toko yang sebelomnya ketutup ama antrian udah pada buka. LOL.
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Akhirnya setelah 10 menit menunggu, (gak nyesel sih, karena berhasil minta balon satu hehehe), masuk juga deh ke Borders.
Kalau dari luar, kayanya antriannya dikit yah.
Jangan salah, di dalem ternyata antrinya harus muterin rak-rak buku kaya uler tangga, saking panjangnya. (-_____-;)
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Setelah 15 menit lagi menunggu, sampailah di depan , fiuuh...

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Gloria Jeans Coffee didandanin juga.... xD

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Oh yeah, I should mention.
Tentunya the staffs dressed up as wizards, yang aku pengen foto ama mereka. Tapi mereka sibuk mondar-mandir hiks. Jadi gak sempet deh.
Akhirnya Utie cuma foto ama salah satu staff Borders.
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Dan kita cuma bisa foto ama satu makhluk yang ada di luar ngontrol antrian.
Errr.... is he supposed to be Dementor ?

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Anyway, senang hatiku sudah beli Harry Potter !!
Kita langsung ngafe sebentar di bawah sambil baca.
Seru. Kita sambil baca sambil bahas huehuhuehue.
Yang ternyata jam 11an harus kita akhiri, karena kita kedinginan (-___-;). And i have to go home anyway, karena tadi pagi aku buru-buru, sampe gak ngurus Candy, belom kasih makan, langsung aku lempar ke kamar mandi tanpa makanan dia, heuheuhuehue......
Jadi setelah kita belanja some groceries, aku berpisah ama Utie.
Eh aku ke RMIT Bookshops dulu sih, harus beli lectures notes for my uni subjects.
Inget di saat-saat terakhir. LOL.

Lalu aku pulang ke rumah, sambil di perjalanan udah ngabisin 4 chapters HP.
Sampe rumah, masukin belanjaan, kasih makan Candy, eh inget !!
Kelupaan beli satu barang. (-___-;)
Harus beli refill foundation, udah abis total.
Ya dah pergi lagi deh akhirnya. Nyampe di city, langsung ke Myer cepet-cepet, liat-liat Bobbi Brown bentar, trus beli foundation di Shiseido counter, trus ke sebelah Myer, David Jones, untuk cari counter Napoleon Perdis karena harus beli rautan pencil eyeliner.
Duh, baru gajian kemaren, udah hampir abis buat belanja-belanja (-_____-;)

Tapi gak papa, terhibur oleh Harry Potter :p.
Selama perjalanan aku udah baca 2 chapters lagi.
Dan aku liat di jalan-jalan, banyak yang nenteng HP sambil baca, LOL.

Rencana setelah nyampe rumah langsung mau abisin sampai malam ini.
Ternyata gak bisa, karena Candy bau (-____-;) , harus mandiin dia dulu, ngeringin dia ( yang makan waktu lama banget karena dia fluffy), lalu tiba-tiba laper, harus bikin sandwich dulu.
Baru bisa lanjut baca jam 4 sore. Sambil tiduran di sofa, yang bisa ditebak, aku ketiduran lagi karena pagi tadi cuma tidur 2 jam an.
Yah gak bisa menuhin target selesai baca langsung deh hiks...
Banyak gangguan, mana ntar harus nyiapin baca-baca notes dikit buat kuliah Senin. :(

Yah gitu deh.. Sekian.

Oh yeah, ini foto bukuku, ama gift nya.
Mini doll of Hedwig.
LUCUUUUU..... =D
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Udah ah lanjut baca lagi ... 25 chapters to go !!!!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

bad habits

1. Kebiasaan buruk pas tidur ?
~ hmm.. i can't think of anything.. kalau tidur anteng kok... oh maybe, kalau bisa diusahakan ada cahaya meskipun remang2 ... takut tidur gelap2.... :D

2. Kebiasaan buruk pas bangun tidur ?
~ liat jam / hp .. sambil merem melek.. " masih jam segini.. tidur lagi ah bentar... " ... pencet snooze .. sampe kesiangan trs gedubrakan ... :D
dalam proses semakin lebih baik sih ..

3. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lg makan ?
~ kalau makan lama... :) pokoknya pelan deh.. :D kalau kalian orang yang makannya cepet dan makan ama aku, pasti sebel deh..
trus gak bisa makan / minum sesuatu yang panas.. jadi abisin waktu buat niup2in.. pokoknya tunggu anget baru bisa dimakan...
i'm always the last to finish eating..

4. Kebiasaan buruk di mall ?
~ suka pengen beli sesuatu ... setidaknya cemilan ..

5. Kebiasaan buruk pas di mobil ?
~ gak suka grusa-grusu.. hey isn't it supposed to be a good thing :-/

6. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lg telpon ?
~ well it really depends on what my mood is that day, and who i am talking to, and what other stuffs i'm also doing at the same time..
aku kadang gak mood untuk ditelpon .. i often prefer sms .. apalagi ama orang yang gak deket ..
oh ya aku gak mungkin cuma fokus di telpon .. pasti ada melakukan sesuatu, entah baca.. atau mainan.. atau nonton tv .. kalau dari penelepon gak bisa kasih bahan obrolan yang asyik, tentunya pasti aku gak akan konsen ke dia...

7. Kebiasaan buruk pas kul ?
~ i'm lazy.. pasti udah banyak orang yang tahu.. aku sering gak ada motivation untuk pergi ke kuliah... hufff.... but i know i HAVE TO change it ! berjuangggggg........ !!!

8. Kebiasaan buruk di skul ?
~ saya anak baik-baik lho.. ga pernah bikin masalah di sekolah kok :'>

9. Kebiasaan buruk di kantin ?
~ err... again, kalau makan lama.. jadi jangan harap aku kasih kursi ke orang lain cepet.. selain itu, ga ada..

10. Kebiasaan buruk di restaurant ?
~ aku suka merhatiin orang lain... biasanya sih cuma ngliat2 sekilas gitu... tapi kalau ada yang seru untuk diomongin, ya gosipin orang lain... paling gak bisa deh suruh ngliat ke depan terus..

11. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lg main komp ?
~ suka bengong di depan komputer, bingung mau ngapain lagi... most of my time i spend with browsing forums, games, ebay, and downloading .. again, no motivation untuk buka web sekolah... pasti tergoda untuk kemana2 dulu, trus baru ke web sekolah kalau udah mentok gak ngapa2in..
haizz.. motivasiii motivasiii !!!!

12. Kebiasaan buruk di rumah ?
~ kalau di indo, hmm.. jarang keluar kamar... karena kamarku adalah tempat ternyaman bagiku.. ada ac, tv, ranjang, cemilan, gak dikerubutin nyamuk .. surgaaaa.....
which is why sering banget aku dapet omelan dari mama.. karena aku bermalas2an terus di dalam kamar.. makan aja aku bawa ke kamar kok..
jarang banget di luar... lha gimana... di luar banyak nyamuk ..


disini .. berhubung aku tinggal sendirian .. dan tv ada di living room, aku jadi jarang ke kamar ...
tidur pun kadang di sofa :p
entah kenapa, gak bisa lepas dari tv ..

oh yeah .. males bersih-bersih .. :D
cuma bersih-bersih kalau mood baik, yang bisa dibilang jarang, atau memang sudah amat sangat super duper messy ..

13. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lagi ama temen ?
~ aku pendiem.. lebih suka dengerin.. jarang banget ngomong.. maka harus dipancing dulu baru bisa ngomong panjang lebar :D

14. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lg marah ?
~ marah-marah lah.... kalau marahnya tentang hal yang sensitif buat aku, pasti nangis...

15. Kebiasaan buruk kalo lg sedih ?
~ err... suka negative thinking .. gampang down and desperate .. lalu langsung pasrah ..

LAST : Pingin ngilangin kebiasaan2 buruk ngga ?
~ hmm.. some habits define who i am, so no.. tapi untuk hal2 yang crucial yang bisa bikin aku lebih baik, why not ... :)



PS : buat jessica, ini bukan post yang akhir-akhir ini aku bilang panjang dan kamu tunggu-tunggu.. postingan itu belom siap untuk dipublikasikan .. cuma karena kamu nagih update-an mulu, ya saya kasih ini ya, bacaan sekedarnya :D

Monday, July 02, 2007

panik di pagi hari

@1 am
*nonton dvd... ngemil ASTOR chocolate...*
nyemnyemnyem....
*makan dengan lahap... yes astor satu kotak hampir abis, cuma sisa 4 / 5 batang..* :D
gimana gak gendut yak ??? (-___-')

@4.30 am
*menuju ke kasur...*
*masuk selimut*
*candy loncat ikut ke ranjang....*
" nite nite candy.... "
~~ sleeping time..... ~~


@10 am
# = candy

# ngiikkk ngiikk nheekkk nghekkk nghekkk....
* n.Cy~~ masih ngantuk, gak peduli....... *

@10.14
# hekkk heffffkkkkk hookkk... ( bagi yang bingung.. ini maksudnya suara keselek gitu :D itu lho suara kalau ada yang nyangkut di kerongkongan... and FYI, candy sering banget ngeluarin suara ini, kalau dia keselek, atau misalnya lagi jalan2, kecekek kalung .. salah sendiri jalan buru2 selalu mau lari )

* n.Cy~~ mulai bangun, tapi masih lom keluar dari ranjang..*
" candy !!! "


candy tak datang .. tetep dengan suara kesedak ...

15 menit berlalu...
n.Cy~~ tidur dengan ditemani suara kesedak yang kadang2 berhenti, tapi kayanya masih berkelanjutan ..
n.Cy~~ berpikir, ah candy biasa kesedak kalau makan sembarangan, mungkin dia makan hairball ..
n.Cy~~ lanjutin meringkuk di dalam selimut ..

10 menit lagi berlalu ....
candy masih kesedak2 ..
n.Cy~~ bingung, ni anjing makan apa sih ?
n.Cy~~ bangun, menghampiri candy .. elus elus candy, tepok2 candy, urut2 tenggorokan candy..
(it works most of the time.......)

5 menit berlalu, kok ga selesai2 kesedaknya ....

n.Cy~~ mulai panik, berpikir keras, kira-kira candy makan apa...
*melihat sekeliling apartment...*
*well dengan kondisi apartment masih berantakan, gak heran kalau candy menemukan sesuatu..*
*melihat ke bawah ranjang.... ada baut2 kecil sisa merakit ranjang...*
*deg-deg an... jangan2 ada yang ketelen candy...*
*itung2 baut...* " hmm.. gak kok masih lengkap bautnya, jadi candy makan apa yah..."

" oh nooo..... candy, kamu kenapaaaa...... ?! "

suara kesedaknya candy makin keras ..
n.Cy~~ lari ke dapur, ambil mangkuk, isi air, kasih candy minum..
" candy, coba minum ! "
Candy minum dikit.. tapi kesedak2 lagi..
n.Cy~~ panik.. ambil yellow pages, nyari vet terdekat ...

belom selesai browsing yellow pages, candy batuk kecil....
tiba-tiba sesak nafasnya berhenti .. dengan santai candy datang menghampiri..
lalu mendekati sofa.. mengendus2 bungkus astor...
n.Cy~~ datang mendekati candy, melirik bungkus astor..
" kok kosong ya, prasaan maren masih sisa 5 ? "


ternyata candy keselek astor ... (-___-;) sialan ...
sukurin, nyolong sih......
tiwas panik...... (-__-;)


ps : yes i know dogs are not supposed to eat chocolate..
but sometimes i give them a little..
selama ini gak pernah kejadian kenapa2 tuh ama anjing-anjingku..

jd aku gak panik deh candy makan coklat...

Friday, June 29, 2007

cold mornings

arrgh.. the weather's just terrible these days ..
masa siang2 udah menggigil sih ... (-__-')
it was foggy 2 weeks ago, and this week, it's raining a lot .. some parts of Victoria floods, luckily i don't live there, it's on the far away suburb..

hmm.. i have so many things to write, but no idea where to begin ..
anyway, quick updates ..
akhir2 ini, i have nothing to do.. males2an.. to be honest, i have some problems with my education, but well, it's holiday anyway ..

hmm.. my apartment's super duper messy.. (-__-')
planning to clean it up before my mom gets here, but everytime i look at those clusters, i just don't know where to begin.. (-__-')
oh yeah, my mom's coming.. i'm not sure yet, maybe around 10th .. she wants to know my new place ..
oh yeahhh, i haven't written about it here, right ? i moved .. about 2 months ago ? now i live alone.. well with Candy, of course ..
hmm.. see, i have so many things to tell but don't know where to begin ..

oh yesterday i went to IKEA , to buy some things , by myself.. ( i bought lots of stuffs, spent about $350 (o_O) , i spent on buying a small drawer, new couch cover, some pillows, quilt cover, kitchen utensils, cutlery .. but i need those anyway ... so no regrets, eventhough maybe later i have to reduce my food budget :p )

nowadays i like to go alone, don't know why.. it feels better to have some quality time by myself, instead of going out with people that i know i'd have to put on a 'mask' ...


hmm.. i guess i better go now, take shower.. i have to leave in 2 hours, to go to my university first, dropping in special consideration applications .. before going to work on 3 pm..
i'll update with more details later..

ciao ..

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

my brother's sick

this is the first time i write about my brother LOL xD ..
i don't know why, suddenly i have an urge to write something here.. well at least it will take my mind off my problems a bit ...

my second brother, who's back at home in Solo, is sick right now ..
he got Dengue Fever ( i can't believe i have to google for this term , damn brain freeze ! ), and had to stay in the hospital .. he checked in to the Kasih Ibu hospital 2 days ago because the doctor said that his thrombocytes wasn't high enough ..
and there are some problems which are, my mom's a busy working single mom .. and right now i think we don't have enough servants, and my brother's fiancee's already back at her home in Sby .. so 2 days ago, when i called my mom, i listened to her moaning about how busy she is..

and there's a sensitive topic in her moaning.. its about the fiancee..
you see, my mom expects that she would come straightaway after hearing that her fiancee's sick ..
after all, they're gonna get married this December..
and what happened was, (this is what i heard) my mom called and recommended her to take train instead of travel-car, so she could come quickly, and she said that she would come, and my mom expected to hear some news about her arrival soon ..
but what happened is, my brother's fiancee didn't make any call or contact to confirm it .. well to my mom, i'm sure she contacted my bro .. i don't know about what exactly happened, maybe she's busy or still waits for the right time or i don't know ..
what bugs my mom, my mom thinks it's not appropriate to hear your fiancee's about to go to the hospital and you seem like you don't care..

i'm sure my bro's fiancee cares for my brother, it's just she doesn't act fast enough ..
she thinks the right thing to do is just go soon as possible, with no delaying, because well she's not working anyway.. and it's her fiancee .. the person whom she will spend her life with .. there's a feminism issue here, women are supposed to serve and care for men .. =D
that's what my mom said, and she thinks that my bro's fiancee's family didn't teach her that ..
instead, my mom said, that if similar thing happen to me, she will persuade me to rush to my spouse ... straight away, quick, as soon as possible ... ! =D
and yeah .. the conversation developed into different topic, about the differences in chinese families, in this or that ethnical groups, like you know chinese people also have different tribes, in their traditions, and their educations, norms understandings, etc etc.
okay i know it's a bit racist ..
my mom actually warns me to never look for a man from specific groups ..
and then i said, " how can i differ them ? everyone looks the same " ..
then she said, " you can know by asking what group they're in or looking at their families .. "
and then i thought, how the hell i can do that ?? is it polite to do so ? and i don't even know the differences .. xD

anyway ..
it's not a really important topic .. xD
it's just making me thinking how hard it is , for me , to be told like that ..
isn't it hard enough to find a good, mature, well-mannered, loving man ... without adding another filter like that ? xD


ps : i haven't heard anything about my brother, maybe he's still in the hostpital ..
~ mohon doa teman2 sekalian supaya kk saya cepat sembuh ~

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

unstable

gue sebenernya gak tau mau nulis apaan ..
jujur 3 bulan terakhir ini gue gak tau apa yang terjadi ama gue ..
gue lagi menjadi seseorang yang gue benci banget ..
awal tahun kemaren gue pikir, 2007 bakal jadi tahun yang beda buat gue .. tahun yang baru, tahun yang lebih baek, tahun yang akan memberi banyak harapan buat gue ..

tapi kenyataannya saat ini gue masih berada di tempat yang sama..
tempat yang gue benci ..
yaitu titik dimana gue merasa menjadi loser ...

gue pengen teriak !!
gue capek !
ketegaran gue selama ini makin lama makin terkikis ..
mungkin bagi orang lain, gue cengeng .. gue lemah.. gue anak kecil ..
iya kali yah ?
ternyata gue gampang jatuh sekarang ..

gue gak tahu sih musti cerita apa ke sapa ..
mau nulis disini aja gue jadi sering bingung, ngadepin lembaran putih kosong, gak tahu blank mau nulis apa ..
malu juga gue untuk cerita disini ..

yang jelas yang gue rasakan akhir2 ini gue kalut ..
stres yang datang bertubi2 ..
gak kasih gue waktu istirahat sedikitpun ..
tapi mungkin ini semua salah gue ..
gue yang terlalu berharap kalau semua akan baik-baik saja ..
ternyata gue masih harus berjuang terus ..

tapi gue capek, gmana donk ?
gue capek idup, jujur .....


ah tau ah ..
semoga aja gue besok masih punya keinginan untuk bernapas ....



omong2 gue baru nyadar kalo skrg gue bokek berat ..
yeap, im flat broke ..
nambah satu lagi deh depresi gue .....
haiz ....